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I'm recently divorced, much to my despair, after 20+
years, of what I "thought" was a wonderful marriage.
I'm a trucker (owner/operator) back into the Fremont,
Ne. area every weekend. But know this, I don't live
for trucking. It's just a job, and I only do it to
make a living. I like to think I'm a pretty decent
guy, and I think that because I am. I'm a blue jean
and pickup truck type of person. I like a couple of
beers every now and again, but even though I'm a
little bit country I DO NOT hang in bars. Nothing good
ever happens in bars, that I've ever seen. I never
learned to dance when I was younger, maybe I should
have now that I look back, but I didn't. And no,
sports has never been an interest of mine, so I don't
spend all day on the weekend sitting in front of the
TV with empty beer cans stacked all over the place.
Had ------ not been "unfaithful", and had she not
thrown my love away like yesterdays trash, I wouldn't
be here. But that's what happened, so here I am. I am
faithful and loyal to the one I am with, and I think
cheating is absolutely despicable. I am well aware of
the hurt, the lies, the betrayal, the breakup of
families and the devastation that cheating causes, and
I never want to go through "that" again. Those that
choose "adultery", never seem to fully realize how
many people they actually hurt, and of course, they
don't care. I came to Ne. 21 yrs ago, to be with
someone special, and I'd do it all over again in a
heartbeat. I'd rather "not" spend the rest of my life
alone. I miss being married, and I miss having someone
to call my own. I miss having someone that I can call
on the phone for no special reason, other than to say
"I love you", and having someone that would call me
for no special reason, other than to say "I miss you",
like I once had. I "doubt" that I can ever once again
"really" have "all" these things, but I'd at least
like to "try" to find someone that I can care about,
and someone that would care about me. A lover, a
confidant, a partner in life. However, I must be
honest and openly admit, I am probably no longer
"financially" what most gals would consider "marriage
material". I'm afraid _____ and the court pretty much
took care of that, as "she" took and was given, pretty
much "everything", and I ended up with very little,
very little indeed. But of course they couldn't and
didn't, take my memories and my faith in God, and I
definitely am still at least, "friend" material. One
day we will "all" have to answer for what we have done
to others, the hurt, the pain, the grief and sorrow,
and that might prove to be "very" interesting for
some. They say love is what makes the world go around.
Even after all I've been through, I still believe that
! It's been said that love is a wonderful friendship,
that caught fire. I believe that too. Maybe the things
I've said here won't make sense to some, but it's the
way I am, and it's the way I feel. My pics are all
fairly recent. If you think that you might like to be
a friend, that you might like to respond to my
profile, please read it over again first, and be sure
that's what you want to do. I'm very sorry, but I
won't reply if you don't have a picture, you saw me,
so it's only fair that I see you.- - - - - - - - - -
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If I knew it would be the last time That I'd see you
fall asleep, I would tuck you in more tightly, And
pray the Lord your soul to keep. If I knew it would be
the last time That I'd see you walk out the door, I
would give you a hug and kiss, And call you back for
just one more. If I knew it would be the last time I'd
hear your voice lifted up in praise, I would tape each
word and action, And play them back throughout my
days. If I knew it would be the last time, I would
spare an extra minute or two, To stop and say "I love
you," Instead of assuming you know I do. So just in
case tomorrow never comes, And today is all I get, I'd
like to say how much I love you, And I hope we never
will forget.- Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
Young or old alike, And today may be the last chance
You get to hold your loved one tight.- So if you're
waiting for tomorrow, Why not do it today? For if
tomorrow never comes, You'll surely regret the day.-
That you didn't take that extra time For a smile, a
hug, or a kiss, And you were too busy to grant
someone, What turned out to be their one last wish.-
So hold your loved ones close today, And whisper in
their ear, That you love them very much, and You'll
always hold them dear.- Take time to say "I'm sorry,"
" Please forgive me," "thank you" or "it's okay". And
if tomorrow never comes, You'll have no regrets about
today.- © Norma Cornett Marek 1989- - - - - - - - -
I'm not afraid of heights,
I'm afraid of falling.---
I'm not afraid of the dark,
I'm afraid of what's in it.---
I try to teach my heart,
not to want something it can't have.---
Some will sell their soul into hell,
for money.
I know one that did.---
I wish I could fall in love today.
But memories of her, stand in my way.---
No man is a failure,
that has true friends.---
I'm not afraid to love,
I'm afraid of not being loved back.---
I would rather live my life,
as if there is a God.
And die to find out there isn't.
Than to live my life as if there isn't,
and die to find out there "is".---
I want to go to bed knowing that I'm in love,
and wake every morning, thankful for that love.---
I had to learn the hard way, that for some,
money is more important than love.---
I have been hurt the most by,
someone that had said "I love you".
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